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Counting Daisies

characters Counting Daisies

Too Would his poison push him away like everyone else“Everybody leaves” “They leave or they die”But what ifwhat if Cameron didn’tCounting Daisies is book one in The Counting Series but can be read as a standalone novelMM romance Not suitable for readers under 18 years of age due to language and sexual content Please note This book contains scenes and descriptions of intravenous drug use which may be uncomfortable for some readers. 5 sparkly starsDarn Nicola Haken did it again She turned me inside out and yes I’ll admit it into a sobbing mess for the latter part of the book And this is NOT because that part is so sad but because it made me so blooming happy This is by no means an easy book to read because Nicola Haken deals with a very difficult subject here Dylan is a drug addict you seePlease be sure you know there's no sugar coating about what’s going on no magical cures We get to see addiction at its worst view spoiler I don’t think I will ever forget the withdrawal seuence hide spoiler

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Dylan Roberts and Cameron O’Neil were good kids Growing up together they shared everything By the age of fourteen they were than best friends – they were in love They dreamt of their future of success marriagehappiness They were going to grow old by each other’s sideBut “Kids are stupid”When tragic circumstances forced them apart Dylan discovered that life wasn’t the fairytale he dreamed of; it was dark difficult saturated with. 45 Daisies starsDylan and Cameron had been friends since primary school They loved each other from that time Daylan’s father was killed in a car accident and her mother died when she gave birth to him He lived with his grandmother until she died too when he was fourteen So he was put in the care system and they lost each other I didn’t even get to say goodbye to Cameron before my entire life turned to shtSixteen years later they found each other again Cameron is a chef in his own restaurant and he is successful but Dylan wasn’t the same person that Cameron knew Dylan’s life was whoring himself and then spent that money on drugs He became an addict So how could Cameron help him I was a disgusting human being a failure and my reflection never failed to make me feel violently sick to my stomachI loved this story but not as much as the other book that I read by this author Broken But this one was really good too I enjoyed both characters especially Cameron My heart ached for him It was really hard for him seeing his love is hurting watching him recovering from the effects of drugs watching his pain He was really desperate to help Dylan but he didn’t know how or should I say he knew but he didn’t want to accept it He was really scared and I feel that His character was close to reality and I liked that Besides MCs I enjoyed the secondary characters and I would love to read Paul and Derek’s storystoriesTold in dual POV 1st person It’s the first installment in the The Counting series but it can be read as a stand alone The writing was really good and the characters were perfect I really liked this and hope you enjoy it as well Sweet Mandarin primary school They loved each other from that time Daylan’s father was killed in a car accident and her mother died when she gave birth to him He lived with his grandmother until she died too when he was fourteen So he was Sweet Mandarin: The Courageous True Story of Three Generations of Chinese Women and their Journey from East to West put in the care system and they lost each other I didn’t even get to say goodbye to Cameron before my entire life turned to shtSixteen years later they found each other again Cameron is a chef in his own restaurant and he is successful but Dylan wasn’t the same The Lost Heart of Asia person that Cameron knew Dylan’s life was whoring himself and then spent that money on drugs He became an addict So how could Cameron help him I was a disgusting human being a failure and my reflection never failed to make me feel violently sick to my stomachI loved this story but not as much as the other book that I read by this author Broken But this one was really good too I enjoyed both characters especially Cameron My heart ached for him It was really hard for him seeing his love is hurting watching him recovering from the effects of drugs watching his The Secret Life And Brutal Death Of Mamie Thurman pain He was really desperate to help Dylan but he didn’t know how or should I say he knew but he didn’t want to accept it He was really scared and I feel that His character was close to reality and I liked that Besides MCs I enjoyed the secondary characters and I would love to read Paul and Derek’s storystoriesTold in dual POV 1st The Tavern on Maple Street person It’s the first installment in the The Counting series but it can be read as a stand alone The writing was really good and the characters were The Automatic Millionaire: A Powerful One-Step Plan to Live and Finish Rich perfect I really liked this and hope you enjoy it as well

Nicola Haken ß 9 Read

Pain and shame Life wasn’t meant to be enjoyed merely survived but even that became a challengeDamaged worthless and disgusting he saw no point to his pitiful existenceUntil he came face to face with the boy he used to loveSuccessful honourable and happy Cameron had achieved the future they planned He was good positive populareverything Dylan would never be What would happen if Dylan let him back into his world Would he destroy Cameron. This story wrecked me Drug addiction is brutal I've seen it turn people into thiefs and liars It's ruthless and fierce and leaves only ashes in its wakeDyl and Cam are amazing together Theirs is a forever kind of love I could barely watch Dylan in the throes of addiction He tries so hard but he's not in charge; heroin is Cameron wants to save Dylan but only Dylan can do that Haken's books pack an emotional punch They break and heal She writes angst yes but there is always sunshine at the end A Faint Cold Fear (Grant County, point to his Sweet Mandarin pitiful existenceUntil he came face to face with the boy he used to loveSuccessful honourable and happy Cameron had achieved the future they Sweet Mandarin: The Courageous True Story of Three Generations of Chinese Women and their Journey from East to West planned He was good The Lost Heart of Asia positive The Secret Life And Brutal Death Of Mamie Thurman populareverything Dylan would never be What would happen if Dylan let him back into his world Would he destroy Cameron. This story wrecked me Drug addiction is brutal I've seen it turn The Tavern on Maple Street people into thiefs and liars It's ruthless and fierce and leaves only ashes in its wakeDyl and Cam are amazing together Theirs is a forever kind of love I could barely watch Dylan in the throes of addiction He tries so hard but he's not in charge; heroin is Cameron wants to save Dylan but only Dylan can do that Haken's books The Automatic Millionaire: A Powerful One-Step Plan to Live and Finish Rich pack an emotional El caso Banchero punch They break and heal She writes angst yes but there is always sunshine at the end


10 thoughts on “Counting Daisies

  1. says:

    Jesus that was heart wrenching And painful And exhausting And utterly beautiful I have the fortitude for a drug addiction and loss story like Dylan and Cameron's maybe once a year Any than that and I'm be reaching for the liuor and anti depressants But whenever I do summon the courage to read one of these stories and mentally recover from them afterwards I'm usually glad at having read it Counting Daisies was an amazing story of love loss reconnecting getting better then getting worse and finally getting the life that was always meant to be lived From Dylan's song to Cameron If I could go back I’d take it all awayTake away the pain of missing you each dayI’d tell you I was sorry I’d tell you I’ll be goodMaybe then I’d get to live the life I always thought I would Although this book made me want to scream and throw my eReader across the room on several occasions this one had all of the feels in all the right places so I'm giving Counting Stars the full 5 stars This book is FREE with Kindle Unlimited membership


  2. says:

    This was a very well written book about the struggle with drug addiction Eventhough the subject matter was very serious it was really good read for meDylan and Cameron were the best of friends untill they turned 14 Then they found out that their feelings went beyond friendship and they became even Dylan has never had it real easy His mom died in childbirth and his father died in a car accident when he was 13 years old This only left his grandmother who took him and cared for him That is untill she died as well Social Services came and took him away from the only person he had leftCameronFast forward 16 years Cameron has made all his childhood dreams come true He's happy he has good friends and he's a masterchef at his very own restaurant Except for a cheating ex his life is goodDylan hasn't been doing so good After Social Services took him away he was placed in a bunch of different foster homes His life took him on a very different path One leading to a heroine addiction Heroine numbs everything for Dylan No thoughts no pain no feelings When these guys reconnect after 16 years it soon becomes very clear that they never got over one another The love between them is still there Cameron really wants Dylan back in his life even when he finds out about Dylans addiction He feels awefull about what Dylan has been through and he wants to help and be there for him So he doesand Dylan accepts his help eventhough he feels like a worthless fuck upDylan tries very hard to kick his addiction but it's so hard He is so messed up in the head and he has such low selfsesteem Sometimes I wanted to slap him in he face with a chair but then I remembered everything he has been through Also I have never been a drug addict so who am I to judge It soon becomes very obvious that Dylan need help than just Cameron This book didn't pull any punches It pretty realistic and at times I was so angry with Dylan Cameron was an awesome guy He dropped everything to help Dylan he loved him so much He wanted to do anything to make things better for Dylan A very good book that broke my heart at times but thankfully glued it back together in the endEventhough this book is uite serious I still want to leave this review with an important yet a bit uplifting gif ;


  3. says:

    45 Daisies starsDylan and Cameron had been friends since primary school They loved each other from that time Daylan’s father was killed in a car accident and her mother died when she gave birth to him He lived with his grandmother until she died too when he was fourteen So he was put in the care system and they lost each other I didn’t even get to say goodbye to Cameron before my entire life turned to shtSixteen years later they found each other again Cameron is a chef in his own restaurant and he is successful but Dylan wasn’t the same person that Cameron knew Dylan’s life was whoring himself and then spent that money on drugs He became an addict So how could Cameron help him? I was a disgusting human being a failure and my reflection never failed to make me feel violently sick to my stomachI loved this story but not as much as the other book that I read by this author Broken But this one was really good too I enjoyed both characters especially Cameron My heart ached for him It was really hard for him seeing his love is hurting watching him recovering from the effects of drugs watching his pain He was really desperate to help Dylan but he didn’t know how or should I say he knew but he didn’t want to accept it He was really scared and I feel that His character was close to reality and I liked that Besides MCs I enjoyed the secondary characters and I would love to read Paul and Derek’s storystoriesTold in dual POV 1st person It’s the first installment in the The Counting series but it can be read as a stand alone The writing was really good and the characters were perfect I really liked this and hope you enjoy it as well


  4. says:

    Counting Daisies was the first book by this author I have read It's been on my Kindle since last summer and it's been showing up in my feed again recently so I decided I had waited long enough It was an intense read and I loved itDo heed the warning though because there are graphic depictions of heroin use and withdrawal as well as a thorough tour of an addict's mind and it isn't pretty I am glad that Nicola Haken didn't gloss over it though because the story would have lost some very important to me anyway emotional impact Counting Daisies is than a romance It is a love story And it is the story of Dylan coming back from the depths of hellDylan Roberts and Cameron O’Neil were best friends growing up Cameron's family had money but Dylan was loved and cared for and life was pretty good Dylan and Cameron were well on their way to being just friends and like any child they had hopes and dreams of forever Until Dylan's father was killed in a car accident Until Dylan's grandmother died from a heart attack Until Dylan was put into the foster system and was taken away from all he had knownDylan broke my heart After the deaths of his father and grandmother Dylan was angry Angry that the people he loved kept dying Angry that he was taken away from his best friend Angry that he felt so powerless What happened to Dylan could have happened to any one of us I think and that is what makes his story so chilling Dylan made some bad choices for sure but he really didn't have the foundation he needed to see that he had worth to empower him to make better choices And once he tried heroin and experienced just how much that took his pain his sorrow and his fear away that was thatCameron never forgot Dylan Dylan was his best friend and first love and Cameron always hoped that Dylan had a good life Cameron managed to achieve his dream of becoming a chef and now owns his own successful restaurant in London He's done well for himself and he's worked very hard to get there Life has been good And sixteen years after being torn apart Cameron finds Dylan outside his restaurant looking like he'd just been beaten upCameron's and Dylan's lives could not have turned out different Dylan is stuck in a self destructive cycle that he doesn't know how to break He feels shame for the things he has done to fund his addiction and though he wants Cameron in his life Dylan is terrified of Cameron turning away once he sees what Dylan really is And that is the crux of Dylan's issues Counting Daisies was an intense read but I could not put it down I read the whole thing in one sitting Watching Dylan struggle with being clean and ultimately failing was crushing Cameron was ill euipped to help Dylan but he tried His friends Paul and Derek were there too to help give Dylan a fighting chance but in the end it's Dylan that needed to see he could do it And Dylan needed help than Cameron could provideFear not though Counting Daisies does have a well fought happy ending Dylan does get the help he needs but the journey there is rough for sure I'd definitely recommend Counting Daisies with caution in regards to the warnings


  5. says:

    This story wrecked me Drug addiction is brutal I've seen it turn people into thiefs and liars It's ruthless and fierce and leaves only ashes in its wakeDyl and Cam are amazing together Theirs is a forever kind of love I could barely watch Dylan in the throes of addiction He tries so hard but he's not in charge; heroin is Cameron wants to save Dylan but only Dylan can do that Haken's books pack an emotional punch They break and heal She writes angst yes but there is always sunshine at the end


  6. says:

    I’m emotionally drained after this readI didn’t think that this book would break and heal my heart all at once “That ended today No fear No uncertainty Just strength HonestyLove” 455 ★Sometimes we forget that life is worth living and perhaps all you need is someone from your past to remember you of thatAnd that we are the only person who can truly save ourselves Sometimes you’ll need help and that’s okay but in the end is your own choice to want to be happy and live that is going to save youAnd that’s exactly what this book shows I like how they show that addiction can be solved is a long hard process and is a fight you will have for the rest of your life but in the end the result is worth itI loved that we get to see two POV Dylan who is addicted and Cameron who is trying to help Dylan overcome his addiction Is very clear to see that is not only the person who is addicted or the person who has to handlehelp the person who is addicted that suffer but both for different reasons I thought that the whole concept of the addiction was handled uite well it wasn’t something that it was overcome overnight We see the process that it took both characters to achieve that Dylan who asked for help and decided that he wanted to live; And Cameron who was there to help and support Dylan in any way he neededSo that being said you can guess that this book is heartbreaking filed with angst pain regrets mistakes fears uncertainties love happiness and strengthOverall this was a beautiful story of the strength that it takes to overcome your fears and addiction blend in with an amazing romance with good writing


  7. says:

    45 stars Dylan and Cam grew up together came out to each other fell a little in love too young to do much about it shared hopes and dreams But Dylan's mum died at his birth his father before he was into his teens and his grandmother when he was fourteen Suddenly he had no family left and everything changed From Cam's point of view his best friend and boyhood crush vanished into the foster care system unfindable unreachable as Cam went on with his life and his own warm family and his dreams of becoming a chef From Dylan's point of view he lost everything that mattered suddenly shunted from home to home clinging only to his father's old guitar and a couple of photographs Whatever dreams he once had were drowned in the necessities of living another day Now many years later Cam is living his dream He has his restaurant he has great friends and employees and although his boyfriend turned out to be a cheating bastard he's pretty happy with his life Until the day he finds Dylan waiting outside the door of his restaurant alone and in need of well a place to stay a job and everything What he doesn't figure out right away despite his friend Paul's warnings is that Dylan is a heroin addict And whoever whatever an addict was in a past life the drug now comes first for them before old loyalties or honesty or health or life itselfDylan has almost hit bottom He tried to do better after aging out of foster care He started working with a friend had a small place of his own But failure and loss dogged him and one day the seductive beauty of forgetting of not caring for just a moment hooked him on the needle in his arm Now he turns tricks for the money to score his next high spiraling down In a last ditch effort to turn it around he seeks out his childhood friend But even his feelings for Cam and his need for Cam's respect aren't as strong as his need for the drug He tries to keep those two things separate to let himself have Cam's friendship and a job and a place to stay and hold his habit away from that life in dark hidden corners But heroin isn't something that is content to be a little hobby on the side He's wrecking the one chance he has at love and life Somehow things have to changeThis book is a very well done look at addiction and a troubled past There are no easy answers no healing with the power of love I really appreciated some of those deliberately realistic aspects the clear understanding that for the rest of his life Dylan will be an addict Recovering hopefully but never cured I liked the vivid reminder that loving someone who is an addict isn't easy and that there's a line between supporting and enabling that's hard to see from the inside I didn't fall in love with these two guys as much as my very favorites of the characters I read but I did care about them wanted the best for them and was invested in their hard won successes and painful failuresThe secondary characters were also well done and since this book lists as a book #1 I'm hoping we'll see a story for a couple of them down the road I will definitely pick up the seuel whomever it features


  8. says:

    “Count the daisies Dylan Turn those bad thoughts into something beautiful By the time you have a pretty little bunch in your hands it will all be over”When I went into this book I really should have known Nicola Haken would have be bawling within the first 10% of the book it is a gift of hers and I know she will never let me down Alas I wasn't prepared and she ripped my heart out let me tell you it took me weeks to write this review I feel like nothing I say will do the book the characters the amazing story any justice However I also feel a need to let everyone know that this book is one that will stay with you for life “A great book should leave you with many experiences and slightly exhausted at the end You live several lives while reading” –William StyronCounting Daisies is an amazingly great book and it really left me with a book hangover of epic proportions I was left reeling with Cam Dylan’s story and after I finally was able to think clearly we get back to the what can I possibly say other than “Wow”Dylan he really has had a hard life and with no one to turn to he found other ways to make money and cope surviving isn't a term I would use to describe him as he really isn't he is existing barely “I was an addict; a fucked up selfish and pointless excuse of a man But in that moment it was worth it The world wasn’t a scary place any I wasn’t alone Right this second life and heroin was beautiful”Cameron “Cam” has lived a much fabulous life since that fateful day when he lost his best friend he has achieved his goals all except finding someone to love and spend his life with His heart has always belonged to Dylan if only he knew what happened to Dylan When these two are reunited it is not roses and happiness Dylan is broken Cam wants to fix him Then add in drugs and secrets and you have the makings of heartache and sadness not to mention the possibility of Yet despite the urging of one of his best friends Cam doesn't and won't walk away from Dylan not even if Dylan tries to take his choice away and runs Watching these two find each other learn about each other learn to trust each other fall in love again trying to not allow the drugs and sex ruin their chances of happiness was heart wrenching I felt like I was spying on hidden moments privy only for those involved Nicola Haken was able to vividly bring this story together so you felt like you were in the story I would recommend this story to all 5 Stars please be aware of trigger subjects Review Copy of Counting Daisies provided by the Author Nicola Haken for an honest Review  ❥❥´¨¸•´¸•´¨ ¸•¨¸•´ ¸•`ARC provided by Author in exchange for an honest review Reviewed by Jaime from Alpha Book Club


  9. says:

    5 sparkly starsDarn Nicola Haken did it again She turned me inside out and yes I’ll admit it into a sobbing mess for the latter part of the book And this is NOT because that part is so sad but because it made me so blooming happy This is by no means an easy book to read because Nicola Haken deals with a very difficult subject here Dylan is a drug addict you seePlease be sure you know there's no sugar coating about what’s going on no magical cures We get to see addiction at its worst view spoiler I don’t think I will ever forget the withdrawal seuence hide spoiler


  10. says:

    45 starsThis was one of the most soul wrecking stories I have ever read But the writing was great and the ending was full of hope This author does a great job in describing broken characters Full review to come


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